Chapter 10

A big load of shit has been happening. So let's start with the stuff that's bothering me the most. 

Lizzy's apparently cutting again and wants to kill herself. In my mind, it's selfish. Hear me out, okay? So she drops the bomb on Julia and I and expect us to like, heal her or something. We keep saying that we love her and shit but she keeps saying how "love isn't enough" and shit. It's so annoying. I do feel a little guilty though. She sent us a long paragraph explaining it and I showed it to my mom and my mom called Anne (Lizzy's mom) and I think she's thinking about sending her somewhere. I'm a bit worried but I hope she gets better if this is actually real and not a way to seek attention.  She's a very big attention seeker. 

Along with the Lizzy drama, we have the Emily and Caroline drama. So Caroline is pissed at Julia for some reason and I got dragged into it. Caroline also convinced Emily to hate her so that's happening. Julia and I have been sticking together and are in a fight with Caroline and Emily. From the outside, it looks like nothing is wrong but if you get deeper you'd see that we've been in this fight for about 2 weeks now. In short, we're all in a fight but no one has noticed because we're eating lunch together. 

It seems that David and I are drifting. I have a theory it has to do with me spending more and more time with Julia. She's great company. Although, I do miss talking to David all the time. He's very sweet and makes me feel just a little bit better about myself. 

It makes me feel just the bit better. 

Very good news; my scars on my wrist have faded! I'm now able to wear whatever I want and not have to wear a jacket so yay! 

Bad news again. Julia and I got the chance to meet Bethany Mota (MacBarbie07) at the MOA but when we got there, there was already about 600 people ahead of us so we didn't get to meet her. The thing that really makes me upset is that we actually went there thinking we were going to get to meet her opposed to when I saw One Direction there two years ago and I actually knew I wasn't going to meet them. Oh well, can't do anything about it now. 

I think I'm done ranting now, so byeeeeee! 

Love always, 

Maddy Iverson

Chapter 8

Been a while, huh? I apologise, I'm not exactly in the mood to write a blog lost especially what this one is going to be about. 

I've been getting bad again. There's new scars covering my forearm and I haven't eaten in a while. But on the good side, I should be skinny by 2014 if I eat less than 700 calories every day and exercise. It's a good thought. 

As for the whole cutting thing, I don't know how to explain that. I've been trying to clear them up on my arm and continue somewhere hidden, I hate having to hide them under long sleeve shirts of which I'm running out of. 

Lizzy and I are planning to make a movie. It reminds me of The Perks Of Beinf a Wallflower but we're doing it different. Olivia is going to be a cross dresser in it! And I'm trying to get Matthew, my brother, in it. It's going to be mostly improv and hilarious. 

There's someone that I met a while back (elementary school) that has sort of made a comeback into my life. David Lyon. Yes, a guy! He likes to write and read, play video games and we basically have a ton in common. It's a nice thought. We both support Manchester United and Chelsea which is quite amazing and we talk about football often. We've been talking for a few weeks and well, it makes me happy. He sends me goodnight poems sometimes or good morning poems... He's an amazing writer. He never shares his work though which is disappointing. One more thing about him, he's in love with someone. I don't know who it is though. I had a feeling it was me but I know for a fact now that it isn't. Nobody likes me. 

Love always, 

Maddy Iverson