Chapter 2

I'm writing this because I have nothing better to do. Okay, that's a lie. I could be cleaning my room or writing right now. I was telling myself a few days ago to clean my room but didn't exactly have a reason to until now. Lizzy and I are going to be having a sleepover on Friday (30 August) on to Saturday. This normally wouldn't be a big deal, right? Well it is.

Lizzy and I rarely have sleepovers at my house. We've been close friends for almost a year and we've slept over at my house twice. Yep. You know when you have a friend and there's always one house you usually sleep at? That house would be Lizzy's in my situation. I believe it's just the fact her basement is larger than mine or that we both sleep on my bed and spend most of our time in my bedroom. It's quite sad, really.

This morning, I did a few quizzes. They were depression quizzes and well, I think I've just been diagnosed with severe depression. That didn't make me relieved. If anything, it made me even more depressed. I went on Tumblr and somehow got under the "depression" tag, "self harm" tag and "pro ana" tag.

I feel like I've been losing myself, like there's no point of living really. I could swallow those pills right now if I wanted to. But no, I promised a friend I'd try and be strong. Becky, if you're reading this, I love you. I really do. You've been helping me through this when everyone else assumes I'm fine.

Enough with all of this depressing shit.I'm starting on a new book about spies. It sounds cheesy but it really isn't. I was thinking about it while on Tumblr. I have been thinking suicidal thoughts, yes. But there's a difference with thinking about it and actually doing it and that's where my story kicks in.

I decided I can't kill off Abigail in Abused nor Charlotte in TET. That would be absolutely cruel. So I decided that in LMS I would have Acacia commit suicide at the very end of the book. I know it's still cruel but I think it would add a nice twist to the book. And then the last chapter or two is from the guy that she's in a relationship with. It will make a more original story as well as prove that not all stories have happy endings.

But anyways, I better go finish off this role-play of Johnlock on Omegle. I'm playing Sherlock as always. I never know how to play John so I immediately take the role of Sherlock. But anyways, I better finish that and clean my room seeing as I've been putting it off for the whole day. Oops.

Love, 

Maddy Iverson

Chapter 1

The meaning of the title of the post is simple in my mind. I like to think of my life as a book, so this is the start of it. And yes, I am a writer. That's the first thing you know about me I guess. Let's go over the simple facts.

Hello, my name is Maddy Iverson. I'm 13 years-old even though I act like much older due to my experiences and the books and movies I've read. I know things most people my age don't. I found out the hard truth from writing and reading at an early age.

As I've been bringing it up a lot, I must put in that I write books and fanfiction on Wattpad. I'm working on one called Abused, it's a One Direction fanfiction. But not all that I write is fanfiction. As well as Abused, I am working on a story called The English Teacher with my friend - Lizzy Chalupsky - and right now we're on the 15 chapter which I'm working on. 

I don't exactly know why I started a blog; I was bored I guess. I've been writing in a diary for a month but that isn't just doing it for me. Plus, this is harder for other people to find. It's more private yet a lot more public. 

I currently reside in Minnesota, the city is unknown for the internet for privacy purposes. I know, I'm caring about privacy when I'm posting my thoughts and actions onto the internet. But I do think that you knowing I'm from Minnesota is good enough. I'm not happy with living here, in Minnesota. I'd love to live in London. Something about it captivates me, something about it makes me dream to live there. And someday, I will. 

Someday I'm hoping to get a flat (apartment) in London with a cat named Sherlock. I want a large bookcase filled with only the best of books. I want to live the life I think I deserve. When I think of it, it reminds me of a life you'd read about in a book. 

You know, a young adult living with herself and a cat, spending her days writing and reading. Drinking tea without a care in the world. Other than my job, that is. 

It seems that I have my whole life planned out but I know for a fact it won't turn out that way. 

Enough with my future, let's talk about what's really important: now. 

As well as reading, writing, and tumblr, I also enjoy singing a little bit. Okay, that's an understatement. I've been singing since I was about 6 I believe. I used to watch American Idol with my dad on the TV and I told myself back then "I'm going to impress Simon Cowell someday". With my singing of course. I forgot about that dream for awhile and then the X Factor came along with One Direction making it's way into my life where I was reunited with my dream. So I'm now working on my singing voice and I'm hoping to audition for the X Factor someday. It would be lovely to tell people my story. 

So since I haven't got another clue about what else to write about and the fact that I need to write 2 chapter tonight, I'm going to leave this here.

Love, 

Maddy Iverson