Chapter 13

Nice to see you again! I know it's not the 26th but oh well, I'm still writing this. 

For Christmas I didn't get much. Only the Lady Gaga perfume, a scarf, candy, a skirt (that I wore Christmas Day), and I think that's it... I don't think I got anything else. 

I'm also waiting for some books I ordered Christmas night and I've been waiting since Thursday. The site says they should come today but guess what; they haven't. I got about £50 worth of books so yay! Most of them have to do with mental illness... Yeah. 

So New Years is coming up. I'm usually against the whole New Years Resolutions thing because you shouldn't wait until a new year to do stuff like lose weight but this year (technically next year) I made a list of what I want to do over the year. So it's more like a 2014 bucket list. I'm still adding stuff to it but here's what I have so far:

New Years Resolutions

1) finish a book

2) start doing daily writing prompts

3) eat less

4) find out who I am

5) read more books

6) drink more tea

7) learn how to play the ukulele 

8) fully transition into the name Lynn

9) make room more Tumblr

10) complete summer bucket list

11) start working out

12) get good grades

13) listen more

14) participate in NaNoWriMo

15) give more hugs 

16) be more optimistic 

17) laugh more

So I'm feeling good about that list. 

One of the things on the list is to fully transition into the word Lynn. It may be a bit confusing but I have my explanation. A few days ago, I was going through nicknames for Madeline for some reason and I found a lot of different spellings of Maddy and then I came across Lynn. It got me in this deep thought of changing my name to Lynn because it actually fits Madeline and I don't know anyone with that name. So I've decided to change my name to Lynn. Don't get me wrong, I'm not going to change it in the middle of the school year. I'm planning on changing it to Lynn when I go to high school so the new students call me Lynn, all the teachers know me as Lynn and my old school mates get that I'm changing it so they call me Lynn. I'm excited to change it so I'll start signing off with that now. 

I think that's it... I'll be writing soon! 

Love always, 

Lynn Iverson. 

Chapter 11

Secret Santa was today; that was fun! Although I didn't get to stick around because I had a book blog meeting in the library during lunch. But I finally got the present I've been wanting for weeks now! Well, ever since summer really. Ava got me and gave me a ton of stuff and I love her for it! My present to Alexis wasn't too fancy, just some sweets and a phone case. I also gave her one of my charms that I sorta collect because I was feeling nice. I hope she liked it. Here's a picture of what Ava got me:

The thing on the scarf is a bracelet. She made both the scarf and the bracelet which is super cool! She also got me tea and some British candy which is rikenrjdjekrkejehndnrjer and a phone case that says "Patty Cakes" do to a inside joke involving The Perks Of Being a Wallflower. 

But last night wasn't too good for me. I may or may not have had a mental breakdown and tried to kill myself. It was nothing major, I just tried strangling myself and I almost passed out. I don't think it's possible to even strangle yourself anyways so I guess I'll have to find another way. Pills were my first option and I didn't have any in hand at the moment, making it impossible for me to successfully do it. 

Nothing else really happened. I've been writing and reading a lot though if that counts and been doing some more crafts such as spray painting a skull that I named Ezra. 

With just an hour or so until I need to get my pictures up, I think I'm going to read more. I'm trying to finish up Eleanor & Park. It's a really good book! 

Love always, 

Maddy Iverson