So now I'm going to (try to) start this back up again because, wow, I had a lot of fun reading back on it. However, it was slightly depressing. I had a dream and since then, that dream has died. I've given up on singing, I've realized that I will not move to London and live the life of someone in a book because lets be honest, my life is far from a book.
I'm at the start of my sophomore year of high school and freshman year really changed me.
When I got to high school, I was a prep. I had given up on the punk rock dreams of mine and focused on being a YouTube beauty guru (even though I never had a channel). I packed lunches for myself, tried to be healthy, dressed nicely, and tried to make a lot of friends.
It worked for a while, and then I saw Devon, who was your typical emo kid. Something about him fascinated me. He was in my history class and paid absolutely no attention to me because I wasn't in "his scene". Sometime in October, I looked up one of the bands he always wore, Asking Alexandria.
The music was alright, but it never really appealed to me that much. So I listened to a song on repeat until I did like it. Slowly, I started getting back into screamo music and started dressing more "punk rock".
He started to notice me, and I became friends with Abby, a friend of Lizzy's and Devon's. I admitted that I liked Devon and she helped me talk to him.
So we started talking slowly and then we started messaging on Facebook and on the third day of texting him, I walked home with him. It was a big deal, because he was the guy I liked and I was hanging out with him alone at his house.
Despite my wishes, nothing happened that night.
But we kept hanging out. One night, we watched a horror movie and because of my fascination with all things paranormal, I wasn't scared. We made fun of the movie and he tried to find my pulse and we spent a lot of time staring into each other's eyes. We didn't kiss that night.
But we eventually did, and then we eventually started making out and I ended up doing a thing called "titty fucking" which I don't want to talk about.
We broke up eventually but we still talked every now and then, but now I avoid him.
At some point this summer , I was walking home from work and Devon suggested we have sex because he was desperate and I was a virgin. He thought he'd be doing me a favor. I politely declined his offer because I didn't like him and he had a girlfriend. Now, I'm doing my best to avoid him which is working because we don't have any classes together (yay!).
Also this spring there was a guy named Andrew that I dated for a little bit but I'm not going to get into him because he was creepy and rude and flirted with everyone.
So now that I've described the most eventful thing, I 'm just gonna do a list of everything else that happened.
-got a cat (Mila)
-went to Warped Tour
-got a job at Culvers
-went on anti-depressants/anxiety
-dyed my hair red
-started going to Treehouse
And that's about it. I'm going to include some photos for your purpose but only briefly.
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Love always,
Maddy
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